Still, I'm struggling for communication in english.
time passed more than three months, and I lost purpose what I want to get with this life.
every my friend seems like get something which they have wanted to get.
but now, I lost direction which I really want to achieve and I'm really confuse when I feel I should make sure this time, It feels like I should prove this life is really worth for me in terms of money, time, other opportunities that I gave up because of this time.
every night when I lie down on my bed, I swear I'm gonna make something sort of really practical and necessary for my future even though I don't have any clue for it, but It's getting faded when I face a problem which can't solve within half an year so to speak, really opposite side to me, so makes me feel I can't deal with it.
but I know I should make it, and It's like barrier that I have to face, and go through if I want to live abroad.
So.. believe in my self, don't avoid facing my weakness.